Today we’d like to introduce you to Cortina Jackson.
So, before we jump into specific questions about the business, why don’t you give us some details about you and your story.
I am so excited and thrilled to be the author of two published novels. My story unfolds as a former police officer married to an abusive police officer. A very unique situation to be in, as my job was to protect and serve when I could not protect and serve myself at that time. This realization kept my lips sealed, as I had to put on a strong face, and have a command presence in every job that I had during the abuse. I have worked in Criminal Justice and Law Enforcement my whole working life.
Feelings of helplessness, worthlessness, and depression, were emotions that I had to suppress and became good at it until my now ex-husband tried to kill me. I watched through tear-filled eyes as the hundred or so pages of my manuscript fluttered in many different directions. About a minute later, the pages blurred as a blow delivered to my head caused my vision to distort, and I found myself resting on top of the pages that had finally settled to the floor.
The pain in my body paled in comparison to the pain in my heart, which was crushed—for bruises always healed, but a broken heart lasted for an eternity. My work, I thought, all of my hard work. What happened next was a series of events that began the new chapter in my book of life. On my hands and knees, I began gathering those pages. I ran to the closet, shoving them into a book bag, as I said nothing.
I decided to accentuate the pain that was inflicted upon me because I knew that it would invoke vile pleasure for my spouse if he thought that his actions caused me physical agony. This would, in turn, take his focus off of the carefully written pages that I had diligently worked on for months, as his goal was to achieve satisfaction at what he thought would hurt me the most. To take his focus off the book bag, I doubled over in pain, as I tossed the bag deep into the protection of a dark closet.
Carefully walking past him, I proceeded to the living room. My confidence and disregard for his presence angered him once more, and more punches ensued. The pressure of my scalp lifting with unbearable tightness made me writhe in pain, realizing that he was trying to rip my hair out in chunks. When this failed, he put his arm around my neck; and with a python-like grip, he squeezed tightly and twisted my head. I could hear the bones in my neck crack, and I realized that my life was ending; deep sadness set in.
Something inside of me just wouldn’t let me die this way. I had two children whom I loved so much, a family who loved me, and a story that I wanted to get out; and I needed to fulfill my destiny! I took my life back from the hands that did not have the authorization to take it. I curled into the fetal position, so he could no longer twist my head. He stood up and left the room, long enough for me to grab my keys and purse, as I fled. The police were called, and he was arrested.
This gave me the opportunity to go back, pack everything that I could fit into my car, and leave for good. I escaped with only things that I could fit in my car and fled with nothing but a broken heart, some clothes, and a story that I had been working on for months. I used to daydream and say that I would be a millionaire by forty, hoping that the laws of attraction would bring it to fruition.
My 40th birthday came, and I had nothing but a broken heart, some of my clothes, my laptop computer, important documents, and that book bag with my pages, wondering if it would ever become a book. Nonetheless, I pulled those crumpled pages from that bag and typed out those words to make chapter after chapter appears. The chapters in my life also began to unfold.
We’re always bombarded by how great it is to pursue your passion, etc. – but we’ve spoken with enough people to know that it’s not always easy. Overall, would you say things have been easy for you?
Trying to get my book published with zero knowledge of the process only added fuel to the firestorm of hurt, disappointment, fear, and depression. I had no money and could not even afford an editor. I queried hundreds of publishers and agents; and with no knowledge of how to properly format my manuscript, I received hundreds of rejection letters; this only made me feel worthless.
My husband had rejected me, the publishers had rejected me, and I could not afford vanity publishing. I decided that this was not going to stop me, or set me back. I fought hard to live; now it was time to fight harder to keep living and achieving. I started researching everything about self-publishing and decided to do all the parts that I could myself, to save money. I looked at everything that the vanity publishers offered, to find out what was needed to turn a manuscript into a book.
As I collected knowledge of the steps of book publishing, my heart soared with joy. I bought an ISBN number and found a company to make my book cover. The beauty of the book’s appearance shone in my eyes while I fixed margins and spacing. Remembering that day when my pages fluttered to the floor because of my ex-husband, I thought about how far I’d come when I found a bookbinding company to keep the pages from ever falling again. I cried when the book appeared on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and Apple iBook.
My moment of pure bliss came when I received a notification that I had sold my first book. I literally jumped out of my chair and began to leap up and down as tears flowed uncontrollably. I began to pour from my heart, thanks and gratitude for this moment. For the first time, I felt like I was something more than a victim, I was a victor! I am somebody. I am a writer. I went from rock bottom in health, wealth, and esteem to a life lived more abundantly.
I’m so thankful for everything I’ve accomplished, and I smile all of the time. When I think about that day when my ex-husband beat me, and I shoved my book bag in the closet, I don’t recognize that person; that person didn’t have a voice that was heard or a reflection that I thought anyone could see. I have come so far, and I feel accomplished and loved. My book of life is still being written, but spoiler alert, it ends very well.
We’d love to hear more about what you do.
I am an author of two fiction thriller novels, “On Earth As It Is In Hell,” and “The Sounds of Silence Are The Loudest.” I am currently working on the third novel, that will be the final one in this trilogy of what I am calling my “Hell Series,” in which we see the pain that is caused by the hands of another to manipulate and influence people, places, and things, that are already in vulnerable positions.
An evil assignment is given in the very pits of Hell to come to the Earth to cause pain and destruction so that the evil forces can claim souls for Hell. I am also the new co-host for a Sirius XM Radio show, on Channel 167 Thursday nights 6-8pm CST, it is called “Live Your Best Life.” No topic is off limits. I am very excited about that opportunity because I now have a voice and people are listening to what I have to say. It deeply touches my heart!
I recently started my own podcast called, “What’s on Cortina Jackson’s mind,” in which I discuss various topics like domestic violence, sexual abuse, and suicide. I also get the opportunity to read chapters from my books and short stories. I hope to have guests on the show to create a platform for their books or personal experiences as well. I have always wanted to act, so I am beginning to take on some roles that I am very excited about.
So, what’s next? Any big plans?
I am looking forward to getting more acting roles. I have found that of all the ventures that I have explored, I thoroughly enjoy acting.
I am also planning to go to film school so that I can develop my skill for writing screenplays, directing, and producing. This is my ultimate dream. I know that this will happen for me, it is what I put to thought frequently.
I have been blessed to attract some wonderful opportunities in my life, and I foresee this one being an accomplishment that will send me to cloud nine.
- On Earth As It Is In Hell- Available at www.cortinajackson.com $14.95
- The Sounds of Silence are the Loudest- Available at www.cortinajackson.com $14.95
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- Both books are available on Amazon.com
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